Wednesday, November 16, 2011

When I grow up.
When you’re young, turning 30 is a milestone you talk about. “When I’m 30 I’ll be a millionaire”. “When I am 30 I’ll be married and a stay at home mom with two kids”. “When, I am 30, I’ll have my life all figured out, right now I’m just young and having fun.”

Well, let me say 30, really sneaks up on you. And, now that I am well past 30, and at the ripe old age of 34, even closer to 35 now, I feel like I haven’t even scratched the surface of what I want to do with my life. In fact, I’ve barely even put my fingernail on that surface.

You know in the beginning of the movie Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, where the room keeps getting smaller and smaller and there is only that tiny door left to get through. Well, today that is what I feel like. Today, I feel like I have reached that tiny door. I have hit that brick wall head on. Today, the low point is where for the last 15 years you get up every morning, leave your family behind and dedicate your whole life behind a desk, pour your heart and soul into a job that turns out being a total disappointment. Not rewarding. And, most definitely not appreciated. I feel like I have wasted the last 15 years of my life behind a desk that clearly does not make me happy.

So, on days like today, where I find myself discouraged, unhappy, and just feeling plain old….I make myself feel better, by reminding myself of some people who were still clearly on their way up over the age of 30 before they ever decided what career path was right for them.

Did you know Julia Child didn’t even enter cooking school until age 36?

Or, Sylvester Stallone, was a deli counter attendant well into his mid 30’s before he hit it big with Rocky?
I guess what I am trying to say is it is never too late to make change and start doing what you really desire and what truly makes your heart sing. And, maybe I am writing this more just for me, but sometimes I think it is good to take a step back, lay it all out there and keep working hard, keep moving forward until that right moment and opportunity of change can happen. And, photography does that for me.

So, I am going to keep pursuing this passion of mine. Too keep finding ways and opportunities. I am willing to learn and work hard to get myself there. To get myself to the top. I can do this!

“Human beings are made up of flesh and blood, and a miracle fiber called courage”
~George Patton

1 comment:

  1. U really can do this!! U r GREAT!! And I really LOVED this post!! I know how u feel!!